A Letter to Neale

Dear Neale... I'm from Ecuador and I read your first book about two weeks and some parts of book two and three. Lately I have been thinking about committing suicide. In your third book says that people that commit suicide are ok and God doesn't judge them as everyone thinks.

I just want to know if there is some kind of awful place where I'll have to stay until coming back to life. I'm asking this because when people die and come back from death, they have experienced bad things only if they commit suicide. The people that die naturally always have a great experience of light and music and stuff like that. What exactly happens with people that commit suicide?

Thank you.

Neale Responds

Dear Friend...

If you think that you are going to escape something that you do not wish to face here on earth by committing suicide, I am sorry to have to tell you that this is not going to happen. All the conditions of your life were created BY you FOR you, for the benefit of your soul and the purposes of your present journey through physicality.

HOME WITH GOD in a Life That Never Ends explains this journey -- and the consequences of suicide -- more fully and more amazingly than any other Conversations with God book...and perhaps, more than any other book ever written. I strongly, strongly , advise that you give this book a read-through before you make any firm decision regarding the taking of your own life.

One purpose of the conversations with God that I am having is to help all people everywhere get in touch with the sacredness of physical life; to assist us in understanding that life in the body is a gift of unspeakable proportion.

When I asked God, specifically, about suicide, here is the information that the dialogue in HOME WITH GOD produced:

Persons who end their own lives "will simply not have achieved what they set out to do. That is important for anyone who is contemplating suicide to understand. The sad thing is that those who end their own life imagine that they are going to change things, and they are not.

"Ending your life in order to escape something does not create a situation in which you escape anything. If you are thinking of ending your life in order to avoid something, you should know, I say again, that you are contemplating something that you cannot do.

"A wish to avoid that which is painful is normal. It is all part of the human dance. However, in this particular moment of that dance a person is trying to push herself or himself away from something that the soul has come to the body to experience, not to escape. Because that person has found the experience to be painful and difficult, he or she seeks to step into a void, where there is nothing to face and nothing to fear. But people cannot step into a void, because there is no void to step into. A void does not exist . There is no void anywhere in the universe. Not anywhere at all. There is no 'place where nothing is.' Everywhere you go, the space is filled with something. 

"What is it? What is the space filled with? Your own creations . You will face your creations wherever you go, and you cannot escape them nor do you wish to, because you have created your creations in order to recreate yourself. It will not benefit you, therefore, to attempt to sidestep them, or to dance around them. Dancing your way to the void cannot be done. Let me put this another way: A Void Dance is not possible."

So what happens to a person who commits suicide? Says HOME WITH GOD:

"You will encounter yourself on the other side of death, and all the stuff you carried with you will still be there. Then you will do the most ironic thing. You will give yourself another physical life in which to deal with what you did not deal with in your most recent one. For it is the purpose of physical life to provide you with a context within which you may experience what you chose, in the spiritual realm, to experience.

"And so, by leaving physical life you will escape nothing, but will just place yourself right back into physical life, and into the situation you were seeking to escape except now you will be back at the beginning again. You will not see this as a 'punishment' or a 'requirement' or a 'burden,' because you will do this all of your own free will, understanding it to be part of the process of self-creation, for which you exist."

So, I said to God, we might as well deal with whatever we are dealing with right now. And God replied:

"Indeed, that is what life is for. When life is used in that way, you will die when you are ready to use death as a tool with which to create a new and different life. Suicide is the use of death to create the same life all over again, with the same challenges and experiences."

Is this what you wish to do, my friend? Do you wish to create the same life you are living now, over again? Do you wish to face, from the very beginning, the same challenges and experiences?  Or do you wish to keep moving forward in the evolution of your soul, using the experiences you have already encountered as your tools and your map, building the path and showing you the way to the next grandest expression of your Divine Self?

The choice is yours, my friend. As always, and in all things, the choice is yours.

I send you love and light on this day of your life and mine. May God's grace and love fill your heart to overflowing in this moment, and may all the times of your life from this day on be a celebration of the grandest notion that both you and God have ever had about you.

Your companion on the journey


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